urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse Writing. Poetry. Bitching. Pictures. Life Mick Malone yo 2006-06-15T05:12:07Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:303909 2006-06-15T04:52:50Z 2006-06-15T05:12:07Z I need to put this part of my life behind me.<br />I've had this livejournal for over two years. It's rediculous. Over this time I've changed so much, I met new people, I lost a few friends. <br />In reality, I want to move on with my life. I'm tired of holding onto the past, hoping "the good times" will come back and such. They won't.<br />It's over, I'm moving on. This is just another way to do so.<br />Out with the old, in with the new.<br /><br />While I'm not going to delete this just yet, I will no longer update with it. <br />If you still wish to read my rediculous rants, which I don't see why you would, add my new one.<br /><br /><font size="4"><strong>ROBOTSTOLEMYSON.LIVEJOURNAL.COM<br /><br /></strong><font size="2">goodbye </font><br /></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:303702 2006-06-15T01:30:37Z 2006-06-15T03:24:39Z I'm sort of annoyed<br />I spent all day in treckis basement and really don't have anything to show for it<br />after a bullshit mixer, waiting for hours, we finally decided to record live, and I'd do vocals over that<br />record instruments, I don't even know how it sounds<br />then it won't let me record vocals, dunno why<br />decided I'd do them later at my house<br />I can't just be fucking screaming in my house, I can't even record some of my soft solo shit without people busting in. <br />Nor will it sound good. <br />I don't know why it's so hard for anything I'm involved with to get a decent recording, but it's frustrating. <br />I don't even know how the instruments came out. I'm tired of playing with people who don't even seem to enjoy it anymore<br /><br />this is just another thing in the huge list of things going wrong since summer began.<br /><br /><br />oh wait, good news! I can't even record over that shit.<br />Fucking hell, 2 years and I have nothing to fucking show for it.<br />maybe I should just quit urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:303567 2006-06-13T23:04:44Z 2006-06-13T23:09:39Z Wow. I beat Resident Evil today. That's rediculous, I never play games like that so hardcorely. When I was done I was horrified.<br />I honestly spent 20 hours of my life on that. Like, I didn't even know. I thought maybe 5 hours. I thought I'd play for like half an hour, off and on, over the course of maybe three weeks. But 20 hours? I felt so lame, I'm not a gamer. I play kid games because they make me happy. That game hit rediculous when I was playign at like 2 a couple days ago in my dark basement, a zombie exploded out of a locker ON FIRE and strangled the character guy I'm playing as. I fucking screamed I was so scared.<br /><br />Anyway, this entry is so pointless.<br />but I just gripped up Kevins Kingdom Hearts. Disney meets Final Fantasy, bright colors and jumping, I'm fucking down. Not to mention fucking disney is awesome haha.<br /><br />Ohh shit, tommorow we're recording. I hope. I believe everyone is cool, just times are fucked up. We're recording "I Ain't Your Friend, Palooka" and maybe some of "The Robots Took My Boy" <br />Our song titles are so wierd. I hope my voice is betterrr urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:303217 2006-06-13T06:04:18Z 2006-06-13T06:04:18Z nahh<br />today was kind of crazy<br />The day was boring<br />but at night, we did indeed go biking in the woods<br />11 o clock. As soon as we walked in the woods we knew there was a problem. Couldn't see shit. No moon. I ran into a stump immediately. Everyone wanted to turn back but I was like fuck thatt and kept rolling. I couldn't tell if i was on a trail, I was waiting to die, and it was crazy as fuck. Then I knocked my face pretty awesomely off a tree, and that hurt. Then flew down a hill and had to jump off a bike to protect myself from getting reall hurt, which made me get hurt anyway. <br />Anyway, that was crazy. Then like 1ish me and jesse were ridin around the hood, ran into bic and them, chilled, drove with them. Could have went to a golf course and smoked, but I didn't feel like it so we got dropped off at ross community, creepy as fuck. <br /><br />Anyway, now I'm home and no one will talk to me I'm boredd urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:303026 2006-06-12T19:40:51Z 2006-06-12T19:40:51Z Man, fuck all the depressing shit.<br />That's not me, I won't let it be me. <br />Whatever happens in life, happens. I don't care anymore. I die when I die, I lose who I lose<br /><br />instead, we're going into the woods at like 10. These are one of the woods we ghost hunt in, you hear wierd animals all the time, and you can't see shit. We're going into these woods with bikes, and we're gona go down the craziest, steepest, rootiest and ditch filled hill there. In the day I almost died, at night, unable to see, I will die. <br />Then I think I'm going to just lay in a field and sleep. That sounds nice and peaceful. I need that right now.<br /><br />Is rootiest a fucking word urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:302597 2006-06-12T16:40:40Z 2006-06-12T16:40:40Z I just had a series of some of the most saddening, confusing, and fucked up dreams of my life<br />I don't think I was even sleeping urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:302448 2006-06-11T19:39:41Z 2006-06-11T19:39:41Z i hate summer<br />eww make this moood goo awayy urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:302107 2006-06-11T02:43:18Z 2006-06-11T02:43:18Z you ever just have random sad moods?<br />Not like grr fucking blah blah<br />just sad, you feel your heart sink, but for no real reason<br />This sucks.<br /><br />We might record on wensday, if we don't, fuck it<br /><br />on the plus side, I got the full version of Cursive's Happy Hollow, and it's amazing urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:302036 2006-06-10T02:44:58Z 2006-06-10T02:44:58Z I haven't done one of these foreverrr<br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br />Part 1: The Birth of You<br /><br />Were you a planned baby?:<br />I'd hope so<br /><br />Were you the first?:<br />3rd<br /><br />Who was present at your birth?:<br />iLL Mitch<br /><br />Were your parents married when you were born?:<br />yes<br /><br />What is your birthdate?:<br />October 17th<br /><br />Part 2: The Family<br /><br />How would you describe your family?:<br />Um, immediate family is chill. Rest of family is just kind of wierd, but cool.<br /><br />Siblings or an only child?<br />2 brothas<br /><br />If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest?:<br />I'm the youngesttt<br /><br />What are your siblings names?:<br />Devin and Kyle<br /><br />Which parent do you get along with best?:<br />Usually both<br /><br />What did you fight about?:<br />Stupid stuff<br /><br />Do you have step parents?:<br />no<br /><br />Part 3: The Friends<br /><br />Do you have more than one best friend?<br />no<br /><br />Who are your best friends?:<br />Not sure, I might consider someone my best friend when they don't like me, lammee<br /><br />What do you like to do when you are together?<br />meth<br /><br />Do you share the same interests?:<br />if meth is an interest, yes<br /><br />Which friend can you tell anything to?:<br />I usually don't tell people stuff<br /><br />Part 4: Your Personality<br /><br />How high/low is your self esteem?:<br />I would say highh<br /><br />Do you get depressed about things easily?:<br />Um, I get mad or blah, but not depressed...<br /><br />Are you happy?:<br />At the moment, not really<br /><br />Do you live life to the fullest?:<br />Probally not<br /><br />Part 5: Appearance<br /><br />Are you comfortable with the way you look?:<br />I don't really care, I'm sure thats obvious haha<br /><br />What would you change about your appearance if you could?<br />I would be 90 feet tall. and carry an axe at all times<br /><br />Do you have any piercings besides your ears?:<br />no<br /><br />Describe your hair?<br />Oh my. <br /><br />What cologne do you wear?:<br />Um, does axe count as "cologne" ?<br /><br />How do you dress?<br />I don't know. I wear too much black, yuck.<br /><br />Part 6: The Past<br /><br />Were you a strange child?:<br />oh yes<br /><br />What did you use to love that you no longer do?:<br />depends how far back we're going. I still do stuff I did when I was like 5 haha. I miss the usual ross park mall nights.<br /><br />Do you have the same friends?:<br />not really...<br /><br />Was there anything in your past that was traumatizing?:<br />Yes. Soo many.<br /><br />Part 7: The Future<br /><br />What is your ambition?<br />Have fun, play shows, die young<br /><br />Are you scared of growing old?:<br />Yes<br /><br />Do you want to get married?<br />Yeah<br /><br />Part 8: The Outdoors<br /><br />Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?: indoors haha<br /><br />What is your favorite season:<br />I like winter for sleep, but summer for chill<br /><br />Favorite weather?<br />Cold at night when I sleep, warmish all other times<br /><br />Do you like walking in the rain?:<br />Depends. If it's a walk just for the rain, yes! but if I'm going somewhere, no...<br /><br />Part 9: Food<br /><br />Are you a vegetarian?:<br />nope.<br /><br />What is your favorite food?<br />Oranges<br /><br />What food makes you want to gag?:<br />a lot<br /><br />What is your favorite desert?<br />slushiesss, thats not really a desert though?<br /><br />What is your favorite restaurant?:<br />Not real sure<br /><br />Are you a fussy eater?<br />Sometimes<br /><br />Part 10: Relationships and Love<br /><br />Do you think love is the best feeling in the world?:<br />Maybe<br /><br />Do you believe in love at first sight?:<br />No. Maybe interested in someone, or lust, but not love<br /><br />Part 11: Experiences<br /><br />What was one of your greatest experiences?:<br />I'm not too sure<br /><br />What was one of your worst?<br />not sure<br /><br />Have you ever thought you were going to die?:<br />every single day of my life....but two like, reall fucking stand out moments would be probally the closest thing to an OD or almost being destroyed by a van on mcknight when I ran through traffic<br /><br />Have you ever suffered from depression?<br />I was actually told that I am, but that was bullshit. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:301612 2006-06-09T01:42:39Z 2006-06-09T01:42:39Z Last day of school was fairly uneventful. I wasn't in a mischievious mood, I didn't really say goodbye to anyone.<br />Oh well.<br /><br />Today I road bikes too much. I jumped in my freezing cold pool. <br /><br />So, summer better be coool. What I demand of it is...<br />-Chilling with you. <br />-At least one or two ross park mall nights, for old times sake...<br />-You come to my band's shows, that way I have someone to smile at on stage<br />-A dance party, or two or three<br />-Ghost hunting, just don't be a dick<br />-Laying on the street and stairing at the skyyy<br />-A few lumberjack tournaments<br />-Bonfires<br />-Turning a shed into a methlab<br />-Sleeeeepppp<br /><br />and a lot more cute stuff, eh? <br /><br />I think late night ghosthuntingxcore will be going down?<br />1 in the morning is the ghosts party time urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:301540 2006-06-07T19:39:14Z 2006-06-07T19:39:14Z So, school is basically over<br />half day tommorow. I might not go.<br />Is it even worth saying bye to people? I don't think so.<br /><br />Today consisted of lots of movie watching.<br />In english some fuckers chose Mystery Men over Willy Wonka, What the fuck are wrong with people? Besides the fact that Mystery Men SUCKS, Willy Wonka is incredable. Suckers.<br />I refound my love in Ferris Bueler's day off. I bet I spelled that wrong, I don't mind. You shouldn't either. <br /><br />So, this school year was cool I guess. I don't think I made many new friends though. Aquaintances, I suppose. Matt and Mike, I guess that's the only new people I actually hang out with, if you count rocking in a basement as hanging out. Chilled with old school kids though, so that's sweet. Remade old friendships, sick. <br />Band went well. Last year, around this time, we still had paul has our only guitarist. Actually, maybe at this time we were broken up. We reformed in summer? We had three shitty songs. Now we have 4 pretty awesome originals, and rock two sweet covers. I'm down with that. Got to play our first semi real show, even if we weren't prepared at all. <br />This is the first year that I didn't get an E's. That's an accomplishment considering I've never did homework at my house, never studied, and did some tests without reading a question (I got a 73 on social studies final without reading more than half the questions. iLL. I only lost one book too!<br /><br />But anyway, beyond all that. I have a gambling problem. Today, we actually had hardcore bets over Heads or Tails. Me grant and Egon. You put down some money, the opponent matches, you pick a side, flip, if you win you get the money. I started with a buck, made it up to 10 bucks I won, but lost it back down to like 2 bucks. Than won 3 more. So making five bucks was cool. I got real into it, but I couldn't stop haha. I almost threw down a 10 and grant would have to put his headphones in, I broke my headphones so I could have used them. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:301073 2006-06-06T19:32:03Z 2006-06-06T19:32:03Z Soo<br />June 19th, Lorelai might do an acoustic set at Brighton Music Center on Babcock <br />I'm not positive, it's up to matt and mike being in town or not<br />we'd probally play some covers and possibly a brand new original<br />just saying, you should keep that day open so you can check it out if we're gona play urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:300971 2006-06-05T23:46:12Z 2006-06-05T23:46:12Z We finished a new song at practice today. That feels so good<br />We also started covering Saosin's Seven Years, just jammed it, sounded decent<br /><br />GOT MY SCHEDULE FOR NEXT YEAR<br /><br />Semester 1 :<br /><br />Gym<br />Math Int 2 essentials (i'm dumb haha)<br />Photography<br />Science and Tech (ebert)<br />AM LIT/COMP (Levine)<br />Lunch<br />Study Hall<br />Amer GOVT (Marziale)<br />Creative Writing (Rogers)<br /><br />SEMESTER 2 :<br /><br />Advanced TV<br />Math<br />Advanced Film Making<br />Science and Tech<br />AM LIT/COMP<br />Study Hall<br />Lunch<br />AMER GOVT<br />Journalism<br /><br />Letting me know if you have a class with me is key... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:300598 2006-06-03T04:21:40Z 2006-06-03T04:21:40Z soo<br />Last friday of this school year...yesss.<br />Next week shouldn't be bad. I don't care for finals, because as long as I pass, I don't care, and I'm going to pass anyway so I just half ass them. <br /><br />Anyway, tonight was Becky's party. Fine time. Rain, chillign around the fire and chatting with kids I usually don't get to talk to (except for occasional conversations at school) so that was iLL. I like hanging out with those kids.<br />It's kind of sad though, I only have 3 more full days of seeing those kids. And like, I know over the summer I'm never going to see anyone over the summer, I know it. Then next year it's gona be different, I won't have classes with my friends, blah blah blah<br />it's weak. This year was good. It went fast, which hasn't happened since 5th grade. I liked my teachers, and my routine. I accomplished a lot, not neccesarely in school, but over the time I did. <br /><br /><br />I always look back on like, the summer before 9th grade. Those were the good days. I wonder if I'll consider these the good days. <br /><br />Later, an entry for summer.<br /><br />HAPPY BIRTHDAY BECKY urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:300385 2006-06-02T01:41:45Z 2006-06-02T01:41:45Z man, it sucks that when people hear johnny cash, they think of his cover of "Hurt" or "Ring Of Fire" but those are two songs he didn't even write<br />(Hurt being NIN and Ring Of Fire written by June Carter)<br /><br />I would hate to be known for something not of my own<br /><br /><br />Anyway, band practice was fun today<br />Johnny Cash is sweet<br />Murder By Death's new cd is incredable<br />It's hott, I hate sweating in school<br />It's friday, I might go to beckys party tommorow, not sure what else is planned for weekend<br /><br />We're recording Palooka the first week of summer, get excited. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:300070 2006-06-01T00:46:26Z 2006-06-01T00:46:26Z yesterday I was at borders, chillin' in the air coditioning and such, you know ? Anyway, out of nowhere walks this old dude, probally like 70, with a grey mullet and a fanny pack, short shorts and like a black t-shirt. He was looking at the like, gambling books. I think I watched him more than I read. He was so fucking hardcore.<br /><br />Then, on my way out, this dude held the door for me ( I hate when people do that, so I rushed so he wasn't holding it long.) he turns and starts walking, then I hear OOHHHH like real loud, I thought he got like, shot, or his apendix exploded or something. Then he stumbles, steadies himself, turns to me and in the most hick voice ever goes "Almost lost my pizza" <br />Then he was crossing the street the same time as me, and some lady stopped to let us go, but I HATE when people do that so I told her to go, so she goes and the dudes all "Why'd she stop?" I laughed and said I didn't know, then he's like "To get fucking rammed in the ass"<br /><br />.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:299929 2006-05-30T23:42:21Z 2006-05-30T23:42:21Z I wonder why I didn't get the fuck out of north hills for good when I had the chance<br />how stupid of me<br /><br />I can't wait till summer so I can get the fuck out of here urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:299564 2006-05-30T01:54:33Z 2006-05-30T01:54:33Z so im being forrcceedd to update this<br />i used ot update like 100 times a day haha, wierd<br />nothing cool happens that i can remember<br /><br />but i got this idea, right?<br />It's called Comander orgasMICK's PPB n' J's<br />right? <br /><br />It's basically a cereal, but soo not. <br />You're gona get a bowl, put some penut butter and jelly in it<br />get some bread, roll it into little balls and throw it in.<br />EAT WITH A SPOON!<br /><br /><img src="http://www.hlasek.com/foto/lemur_catta_6743.jpg" /><br />Lemur<br /><br /><img src="http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/thumb/9/92/YellowLabradorLooking_wb.jpg/250px-YellowLabradorLooking_wb.jpg" /><br />Dog<br /><br />Is it really that much of a mistake to thing a lemur was in the dog family? I think not!<br /><br />and just because I found this on my journeys, it needs to be posted<br /><img src="http://www.dog-in-a-shell.com/images/dogs/1069.jpg" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:299337 2006-05-28T05:15:03Z 2006-05-28T05:15:03Z i feel like it's summer<br />The weather, being up at 1 in the morning and not being the least bit tired<br />sneaking out and creeping around<br /><br />i cant wait till it's official urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:298790 2006-05-27T05:27:20Z 2006-05-27T05:27:20Z 2 entries in 5 minutes is out of this fucking world<br />I apologize; "sorry"<br /><br />My mind and body are dying<br />its only a matter of time<br /><br />I have a video camera and tape. i'm to make a movie.<br />I think i'll make 4. <br />[artistic = pretentious]<br />Fuck you too.<br /><br />i got a question<br />WHERE THE VICS AT<br />eww chill wit that haha<br /><br />ross park mall is out of control.<br />my spine is bleeding urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:298587 2006-05-27T05:22:17Z 2006-05-27T05:22:17Z kennywood is for n00bsdsihjdsfuhfduh<br />if you go to kennywood tommorow, DONT FUCKIN TALK TO ME<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Unless i like you, then we're cool<br />[typing with your head sideways is revoloutionary] urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:298311 2006-05-25T20:07:29Z 2006-05-25T20:07:29Z <img src="http://i5.photobucket.com/albums/y183/SellersBling/DallasTaylor.jpg" /><br /><br />hero urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:298064 2006-05-24T00:04:28Z 2006-05-24T00:04:28Z <img src="http://i69.photobucket.com/albums/i45/Lorelairock/Lorelai%20Saves%20Kittens/760480140_l.jpg" /><br /><br />our kittens! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:297748 2006-05-23T00:14:25Z 2006-05-23T00:14:25Z HOLY FUCK.<br />WE, THE MEMBERS OF LORELAI, JUST SAVED TWO TINY KITTENS<br /><br />Okay, so we're at monte cello's, grubbin you know? Anyway,on the way back we're walking up this street (after a long series of delays) and we hear little noises. I thought it was a bird so I kept walking. Then I hear danny yell something and run across the street. I thought he was pointing at this pink ribbon in a tree, and I got all pissed. But then I saw this blonde kitten like rolling down a hill and danny's like KITTENS.<br />Anyway, there was a blonde and a black kitten in this like, hole in a rock formation on the side of the road. Theres a big dead cat in the hole to :(, it's mother. Anway, matt got gloves from this dude across the street and he had to pull this stiff cat out of the hole, which looks incredabely hard. We rapped the kittens up in danny's hoodie and after like 20 minutes of frantically calling operators and shit to get an animal shelter, we get the fucking answer machien of animal friends. Fucks. So we took them up to trecki and tried to get them to drink and all of that. I named The black one Wayne and the blonde one Garth. I think all of us have our own names for them haha. <br />Anyway, matt took them home and I think he'll take them to a vet tommorow.<br />They were so awesome. I really hope they live. <br /><br />It's just crazy. We have pictures, I'll show you my children when matt sends them my way! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lovexisxaxcurse:297687 2006-05-21T03:19:46Z 2006-05-21T03:19:46Z So I have the new AFI cd. I love it. Their's a few songs that sort of are ehh, but some are amazing.<br />It's both softer and heavier then Sing The Sorrow.<br /><br />I spent most of last night and a lot of today playing Resident Evil 4. I'm hardly ever into games like that, (I usually only play mario or megaman games, things like that..) but it's pretty crazy. I suck at it though :( <br />I remember way back in the days when my brother borrowed his friends resident evil 1 game. I tried playing it, keep in mind I must have been like 8 years old during this, and I turn some corner and this cut scene comes on. Theres this like, body hunched over, and you hear icky noises, then the body turns AND IT'S A FUCKING ZOMBIE. and you're like HOLY SHIT. Anyway, that shit scared me for like 2 years. <br />Zombie's are creepy fuckers.